Take me now

2:17pm:
After everything that happened
I honestly don't know
After everything that's happened
I need you to show
Show me that you love me
And prove to me you care
Show me that you'd miss me
If I wasn't there
I wonder if you'd miss me
I really, truely do
I wonder if you mean it
When you tell me, "I LOVE YOU"
I wonder if you care
If tomorrow I were to die
I wonder if you care
'Bout all the times you made me cry
I wonder what you're thinking
While you're reading what I write
I wonder if you know
That this is what I think about at night
I wonder if you feel
The same way that I do.
I wonder if you care
That I'd be lost if it weren't for you
I wonder if this whole time,
To me, you have been true
I wonder if you realize
How much that I love you.

11:33am:


Yea, I'm changing it to friends only from now on to see how it goes.

Since it fucked up in the picture...Comment to be Added <3

1:39am: Photoz! woo
( ...My baby shot me down... )
So, tonight I got to see my Matt. We went to Pool Sharks. I watched everyone shoot pool and such. Fun shit. Paul kept shaking me lol. Matt played La Bamba on the jukebox, and I got all happy and giggly. hehehe Yea, we went back to Pauls house for like 10 minutes, but then me and Matt ended up leaving. We go back to his house. Hang out for a bit. Then my dad calls, so I go home.
And here I am at 1:47am writing this, and getting ready for bed.
I'm off
Lizz

6:46pm: Man oh Man, I'm so bored.
I'm waitin for my Matt to call me. We are supposed to go play pool tonight I guess.
Yea, no school for Lizz today. woo.
Me and my pops went and got food, then we went and saw Scooby Doo 2 haha I talked to my sister and she said that her and my mom got in an accident on the way to California. My mom tried to switch lanes, but there was someone in the blind spot, and when she swerved back into her lane, she overcorrected and got hit into the wall. They totalled the rental car I guess. Everyone is okay though, so that's good.
Umm...not much else to say.
I got a slurpee. yay And now I have to go babysit.
ciao
Lizz

ps Felicia...I can't wait till sundayyyyy <333

8:59pm: HELLA!

You are SALUTE YOUR SHORTS. You are a wangsta who
knows business. You have fun in the sun and
know how to have a good laugh.


Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
I loved that fucking show!! hahaha

5:12pm: stolen yo
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

DOOO ITTTT!! OR I WILL FUCKING EAT YOUR CHILDREN!!!!!

<3 Lizz

7:48pm: My name is Anthony and I work at Toys R Us
So today after school, I went and hung out with Squid. It was hella fun. Me and him most definately gotta hang out more. I miss that kid like whoa. He is moving..not for awhile though cos the date got moved back..woohoo haha
Yea, I came home, and there was a message on my answering maching from Stevo!! :oD hehe
I missed it..booo.
He said he'd call me again though! hehehe
Matt said he's call me. I really hope he does. I gotta talk to him. hmm.
Yea, that's about it. I gotta go run and drop off Erin's cd.
Laterrrr

7:26pm: my sunglasses can kick your sunglasses ass


I'm on the phone with Crystal. <33

6:32pm: this is too close
You spurn my natural emotions
You make me feel like dirt
And I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I run the risk of losing you
And that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with

I can't see much of a future
Unless we find out what's to blame
What a shame
And we won't be together much longer
Unless we realize that we are the same

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with

You disturb my natural emotions
You make me feel like dirt
And I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I'll only end up losing you
And that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with

....Why can't you just talk to me? Tell me what I did wrong. I hate crying all the time, and then needing to talk about it, but I can't. I can only talk to you about it when YOU want to talk...it shouldn't be like that. It's a team effort. Help me. Please. I don't want to lose you, but I need to feel like you care if you lost me.
I'm so fucking confused right now...I don't know what to do anymore. </3

9:25pm: Photoz <3
( My sad attempt at Rockabilly hair )
( Random pix from today )
Yea, I was bored today haha


The anticipation is fucking killing me!!

-Lizz

12:35pm: Business was yesterday. Fucking rad. I picked up Felicia and Spencer around 430 or so...we drove all the fucking way across town to Scandia to surprise Matt, but he wasn't there!!! lol We were bein stalked by old mexican guys lol. I called Matt and found out he was at Nicks house, so we go over there...I get out of the car and I don't even get a HI from Matt...I get shot in the stomache with his effing blowdart gun...butthead<3 Anyway..after that, then we go down to Matt's house. We are there for about 15 minutes. Then we have to drive all the fucking way back to MY side of town to go to the show haha Oh well..it was worth it. Good show. I got to see all my gals <333 and my guys. haha I met a bunch of cool new people..wooo lol After the show, I took Felicia and Spencer back to Felicia's house. I was soooo fucking tired...I didn't want to drive, but my parents wouldn't let me crash at anyone's house. I took Matt and Nick home...Me and Matt hung out for a bit before I had to go home...I got home and passed the fuck out.

Gooooood shit <3333
( I need help! )

Ciao fuckaz!

9:19pm: boredom strikes
( Boredom leads to shit like this... )

11:12pm: I'm so scared right now.
I don't know what to do...
I can't even think straight right now.
I'm shaking here..I can barely type.
I have that lump in my throat where you are
fighting so hard not to just break down
and cry...

man oh man...
:o(

6:19pm: They don't love you like I love you
Holy shit! I actually did something!! lol
Friday night I went down to Felicia's house, but no one was home haha. I was told that she'd be back in like 10 minutes...I ended up hanging outside of her house in my car for like an hour, then I decided to go home. lol

Saturday, I went over to Felicia's AGAIN lol Met up with her, Lauren, and Matt there. We go to the Bellz factory mall thinger. Matt FREAKS OUT and turns into THE HULK cos he couldn't find a phone book hahaha PHOOOOONE BOOOOK!! RAAAAAAAAAWWWWRRR!! hahaha Yea, he gets really pissed off and ends up punching a hole in the wall by one of the phones at the exit. We leave. We go to Scandia and play a game of miniature golf. hahaha We suck! lol After that we go back to Felicia's house and drop off her and Lauren. Me and Matt go back to his house and spend the rest of the evening together. It was our five months <3333
I had such a fucking good day yesterday!!

I was supposed to go back to Felicia;s today and audition, but nooo my mom and shit makes me go shopping and such with them. So, I am going over there after school tomorrow to audition. I'm skuuuuuuuuured!! hahaha

<333
I'm off
Lizz

8:02pm:

Joel passed out on my bed hahha
<333
:oD

5:12pm: Sooo...nothing really has happened.
I'm almost out of fucking gas already hahaha.
I hung out with Jake and Michael the other day. We went to Cash and then both malls. We were bored. Yea.
Yesterday after school, I took people home, then layed down for a bit. I woke up to Matt calling me. He gave me directions to Felicia's house. I drove down there...got a bit lost cos the sign to her street was knocked down. lol I ended up about 2 miles past it when I decided to turn around and go the other way. haha I saw matt standing on the side of the rode. He got in, then we went back to his house. Yea. We hung out for awhile. Then I went home. Today I went to school found out that Brandon is dating JoLea (what?!)...after school dropped everyone off. Then came home. My dad gave me money to go to Fatburger...and now I'm sitting here drinking the best fucking milkshake I've ever had. mmmm

Cheers
lizz

12:35pm: Yea, so Lizz got her license. Woohoo. hehe Um..I am supposed to go to this bbq thing tomorrow, but I don't know seeing as how I don't know where it is. Yea. I think I might go down and see Angie for a bit. My mama needs to ask her advise about some clothes to wear for this 60s party thingy. I also gotta go to Big B's or Balcony Lights cos I wanna look for some cds. I think I might stop by cash too cos I need patches and such. Me and Mike might do something tonight. I don't know. I went with matt and Nick to see Kill Bill Vol 2 last night. So good. Angie and Ryan were there too. good stuff.
Anyway..I think I mentioned something about dressing up my sista...anyway..here's pictures hehe

7:46pm: mmmmmmBOPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!
So, things weren't as good as I thought they were. :o\ Not at all. But, after every "I'm sorry" and every tear shed, things REALLY are good now. And I'm so fucking glad. Like whoa. Everything is back to the way it used to be. Minus afew things with Chris and Atir and such.

Me and Crystal are supposed to hang out next weekend. yay! I think me and Matt are going to the movies tomorrow to see Kill Bill 2. That should be fun. He is looking forward to it. Plus, I don't have to babysit..THANK GOD!!!
LIZZ TAKES HER DRIVERS TEST ON SATURDAY!! aaah. I'm a bit skurred. I'm pretty confidant though. I just like to drive a bit too fast haha so that's really the only things I'm worried about.

ooh well.

I'm off. I gotta put the fuckshit kids to bed.

cheers
Lizz

11:08pm: Pic-chaaaas!!!
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7:19pm: Fuck shit god damn mother FUCK!
Stolen from waronthestreets
FIRSTS:
First best friend: Either Chelsea or Crissy. I don't remember their last names
First car: My neon. booya
First date: Umm..I saw Stuart Little in the theatre with this boy Gavin..my mom was there too so I don't know if that counts
First real kiss: Jeremy Jordan. fucking GAG
First break-up: ummm...I don't remember, but my first "boyfriend" was this kid Daniel in like kindergarten. I assume we broke up.
First screen name: DixieChick866 hehehe
First self purchased album: Um. I don't remember.
First funeral: Aunt Wendy.
First pets: I had fish?
First piercing/tattoo: Ears. Other than that it was my nipple.
First credit card: 76 and Mobile gas cards.
First true love: Matt<3
First enemy: My first REAL enemy was probably Renna. hmm.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: I dunno
LASTS.
Last cigarette: Like two days ago
Last car ride: Earlier today. I went to 7-11
Last kiss: Whenever the fuck I saw Matt last. :o\
Last good cry: This morning.
Last library book checked out: Fuck if I know
Last movie seen: Ladykillers
Last beverage drank: Milk
Last food consumed: Mini brownies
Last crush: umm..Matt? Does he count? If not..Joel.
Last phone call: I talked to Matt a second ago for...a second. :o\
Last time showered: This morning..er..afternoon.
Last shoes worn: My 14i's
Last cd played: Chicago Soundtrack
Last item bought: A slurpee
Last annoyance: My fucking sister.
Last disappointment: Matt...
Last time wanting to die: Like 5 minutes ago.
Last time scolded: Fuck that.
Last shirt worn: My X halter top. :oD
Last website visited: haha Brittany's LJ.
Last word you said: FUCK!
Last song you sang: RIGHT ON-antiflag

FUTURE:
Where do you want to go?: So. Cal
What is your career going to be?: Cosmetologist.
Where are you going to live?: I'll probably end up staying here.
How many kids do you want?: 2

CURRENTS:
Current mood: Pissed off.
Current music: silence
Current taste: blood. I bit my lip.
Current hair: Big <3
Current clothes: my X halter top, my patched up SCUM jeans...boots.
Current annoyance: The fucking world
Current longing: To be the fuck outta here
Current desktop picture: Its blue.
Current favorite artist: Don't have a favorite
Current book: none.
Current color of toenails: Chippy black, lol.
Current time-wasting wish: That Matt would get online or fucking call me.
Current hate: My sister.

WHATS:
What is in your cd player?: umm...antiflag...subhumans...and a mix cd
What color socks are you wearing?: one blue sock with a penguin on it, and one pink sock with a bunch of little penguins on it.
What Color of underwear are you wearing: Pink with cherries.
What's under your bed?: another bed
What time did you wake up today?: 745 to call matt...then I went back to bed, and woke up at like 11

6:59pm: FUck this! I fucking hate my sister with more of a passion than can ever be fucking explained. It's not even fucking funny. At this point I hope she fucking dies tomorrow. Fuck that. How about right now? Yea...wouldn't give two squirts of piss.

Fuck you!

lizz

10:44pm: rawwrrrrrrr
I fixed up my new "X" shirt. It was a fucking xtra lartge hahaha It's hella cute. I'll get pix when my parents come back into town and give me my camera back. I fixed up my vest a bit too. hmmm...I feel like I'm gonna puke and I don't know why. Maybe there was something in the slurpee. :o\ Yea, I drove Carlos and one of his friends to 7-11. haha we were honkin at and makin fun of these girls who had on like..negative clothes. Let's just say...they weren't "fit" to be wearing them. Right. Anyways...I'm waiting for my sista to get home now so we can go down and wait and surprise Matt<3 by picking him up from work.yep yep. Good stuff. I just hope his parents or anything aren't there too. haha
Well, I'm off.

ta ta
lizz

10:44pm: Fuck, I'm bored.
As a comment, post one picture that either reminds you of me or that describes me. Don't leave any extra messages or comments with it (unless you really neeed to), though, just the picture.

1:11pm: Just....FUCK.
I'm so fucking sick of the same old shit.
I get pissed off about something...most of the time it's so incredibly fucking stupid...I won't ask for help though...and I won't try and talk it out civily. I have this cocky fucking attitude towards anyone I talk to at the time that I'm pissed. Then I end up hurting someone else. Then I get even more pissed off...then I feel like shit...then I feel sad...then I just feel completely lost and I don't know what to do. I just want to talk to that person. But I can't. And it's gonna kill me until I can. And I fucking hate that too! Things take over. I can't get over something, or I can't do anything else, or think about anything else until it is 100% fixed, or me and whoever it is both know that things are okay, and that I'm sorry, or whatever. FUCK!!
It's one 'o' clock right now. I'm sitting here still in my pajamas on the fucking verge of tears because...I don't even really fucking know why. I just want to talk to that person and make sure they know that I'm sorry, and that I was being stupid. But I can't. And god knows when I'll be able to. I feel like such a complete idiot.
I've lost everyone that is even remotely close to me. I don't really have any friends anymore. All my old friends either now have boyfriends or girlfriends who consume their lives, and they don't have time to be friends anymore. Or, they are just being assholes. Or they are consumed with drugs. I can name like 2 people that I still have in my life..with the exception of my family. Matt and Shayna. And I hardly have Shayna anymore. We have become so distant and it sucks. But it's because of drugs, and stupid shit.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate not being right, and I hate having people tell me something that I know is right, but I won't admit it. I can't just sit around moping about not having friends, and not having a life and shit. I need to get out and do something about it. But what the fuck am I supposed to do? I really don't fucking know.
Fuck this. No one is gonna read this anyway.

5:37pm: JOIN!
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